I was a believing Mormon when I applied for BYU and was accepted. Between that time and my enrollment, I lost my belief in Mormonism. When I enrolled and entered as a student (in 1989, at age 17), I did not fully understand that if I were to be honest about my disbelief, I would be expelled and prevented from transferring my credits. In order to have documentation of the credits I earned (B.S. Mathematics, 1992), I was required to lie about my beliefs in ecclesiastical endorsement interviews. I consider it a formative experience in my life that I was obligated to choose between my education and my integrity.